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menomegirlPart 11 of the Holiday series:
Channeling Angelus
by Menomegirl
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Summary: Angel lets some emotions out, Lindsey learns something about his new self.
Rating: NC-17
Author Notes: Feedback: Yes, please.should I continue or end this series? Let me know!
Disclaimer: Joss, ME, etc, etc.own them. I just like to see them happy. Or confused. And exhausted, apparently.
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Lindsey looked into Angel's eyes, and he saw regret in them. He could damn near hear the thoughts going on in the vampire's head. Angel was reliving that moment in time, the moment the Oracles had said he'd circumvented fate by giving into his anger because Lindsey had won the case earlier that morning. He could see the vampire wondering about all the crap that happened after that long, long day had passed.
Lindsey was stunned when Angel pulled him into a tight embrace, and even more surprised when he felt the shaking start, heard the quite sobs coming from the vampire. He wasn't sure what to do in this situation, but felt that vulnerability within his lover again. It angered Lindsey somewhat, because he'd suspected the Powers, the senior partners, or whoever found that vulnerability would use it for their own ends. That's the reason he'd wanted to help Angel in the first place.
And Fuck......turned out, he was right. Son of a Bitch! Lindsey sighed, curled one arm around Angel, wound the fingers of the other into the vampire's hair, rested his chin on top of his lover's head and just held on until the storm of regret passed, wishing like hell he could give Angel all his strength to help him. He didn't like seeing him this way.
When the weeping had calmed down, Lindsey softly said, "It's not your fault, Angel. I did what I did. You aren't to blame for my actions. I was a grown man who made my own choice. I may have made that choice in anger, but that only makes me as stubborn as you are."
"Yeah, but I could've saved you," Angel whispered. "Look at all that happened after that."
"We don't know what would have been, Angel," Lindsey said. "Yeah, possibly it could have been the better course of action, but what would I have been to you? Someone else you had to protect, someone else you would have felt obligated to, like all your friends?"
Angel said, "But Darla wouldn't have....."
"Been brought back? Yeah, she would have," Lindsey said.
"But then....Conner..." Angel trailed off, unable to regret him.
"I know. I wish I could take away your pain over that. But I can't. I'm sorry," Lindsey softly said, moving his hand to caress the side of Angel's face.
Angel reached up and touched Lindsey's hand. "And I cut off this hand."
Lindsey smiled gently at him. "Well, to be honest, I could've done without you doing that. But even then, I gained strength from the experience, Angel. And I learned something of vast importance in the process."
"Oh, yeah? What was that?" Angel said.
Lindsey's eyes sparkled in merriment as he replied, "Right works a whole lot better than left when it comes to jerkin' off, Angel darlin'."
A small smile appeared on the vampire's face. A snicker escaped those lips. The smile got wider. Then a real laugh came fourth. "It really does, doesn't it?" Angel said.
"Yeah, it does," Lindsey said, then leaned in to kiss that smile.
"You looked really hot doing it, too," Angel said, laughing into the kiss.
"You looked really hot while you were watching me, Dead Boy," Lindsey replied, urging Angel to lower himself away from the headboard.
"How the fuck would you know? You had your eyes closed, and you were way too busy screaming my name to notice what I looked like," Angel said, complying with Lindsey's unspoken wish.
"Says you! I saw you underneath my lashes. Your eyes were staring at my hand the whole time, Angelcakes," Lindsey retorted. "You looked....like you wanted to eat me up."
"I did," Angel said. "I do....I will....later," he whispered as he tilted his hips to accommodate the man over him. "Much later."
"Is that a promise or a threat?" Lindsey said, charming Angel into opening for him.
"I'll make it a promise, if you stop dicking around and be in me," Angel muttered.
"You're so impatient, Angel love," Lindsey teased. "You're the one who wanted me to keep up with you." He twisted his fingers, hit what he wanted, and yes that look came over Angel's face. He rubbed harder, pressing deeply into Angel.
"Lindseyyyyyy" Angel moaned, arching his body up, making Lindsey press harder. "Yes!"
His fingers moving in a tight circle over Angel's sweet spot, Lindsey looked around them for that damn lube. Where had the vampire tossed it last night? Shit Too bad they were all sticky and smeared from a while ago. Using his own come would've worked just fine.
"Lindsey, hurry up. You're killing me here." Angel groaned.
Lindsey snorted. "You're already dead, Soulboy." He scissored his fingers, stretching Angel wider. "Damn, where'd you throw the lube at?"
"It was empty. And I've told you before, you don't have to use lube on me. Now come on," Angel said. "And stop calling me names."
Lindsey stilled completely. Angel groaned. "Empty? Well, shit....why didn't you say so before?"
"Oh, come on, Linds. You like it rough, sometimes, too," Angel complained.
"I might like it rough, but I don't like it raw. I can't do that," Lindsey said. Angel growled. Lindsey shivered with arousal at the sound. "I'm not a demon, Angel," he softly said.
"You're not totally human now, Lindsey. Can't you.....channel Angelus and just....do it?" Angel said.
"We don't know what aspect of Angelus they gave me. And.....No. I don't want to just do it," Lindsey replied.
Angel growled again, which caused Lindsey to shiver once more. The vampire could both see and smell how aroused his lover was. "Fine. You want lubrication? I can do that," Angel said, reaching over to the night stand, grasping the edge of it. He viciously jerked his hand, tearing into the palm of it. He held his hand out to Lindsey. "There."
Lindsey looked at the hand, then raised his eyes to peer into Angel's. "You want to cover me in your blood?" He quietly asked. Angel's gaze was smoldering. The coppery sweet smell of the vampire's blood hit Lindsey like a ton of bricks. He broke out in a sweat.
"Yes, I do," Angel said. Then he moved, reaching for Lindsey....and he coated the young man's erection, stroking him as he did so. Lindsey was very hard now.
Lindsey was harder now. He felt like....exploding....right now....right in Angel's hand."Stop, Angel....hold up....just...," Lindsey raggedly said. He bit into his lip, closed his eyes and prayed for some control over his body.
Angel stopped. He smiled. Hmm....Lindsey liked that. He looked like he was really, really getting off on it. Right. File that away for later, but for now.....
"I want you in me now, Lindsey," Angel whispered.
Lindsey swallowed, held his breath, and positioned himself. He slid swiftly into Angel, gasped at the tightness surrounding him, muttered "Oh, man," then he started riding Angel hard.
Angel hissed, "That's it, Lindsey." And he began moving his hips up into it, taking it to a faster pace.
"Fuck, Angel!," Lindsey screamed, just pounding into the vampire now. He couldn't help it. He closed his eyes again, and just moved. Angel wrapped his legs around Lindsey's waist and pulled him closer. Lindsey clenched his teeth and pushed harder.
"Oh, YES!," Angel yelled. He raked his fingers down Lindsey's back, drawing blood. Lindsey wound one hand into Angel's hair, twisted his head to the side, and bit down right on Angel's pulse point....not hard enough to break the skin, but enough to send them both over the edge. "FUCK, LINDSEY!!," Angel screamed.
Lindsey collapsed onto the vampire's chest, just breathing. Well, at least he hadn't passed out. That was an improvement, at any rate, but fuck......he couldn't believe what he'd just done.
"Oh, my God, Lindsey," Angel said.
"Uhhh," Lindsey uttered.
"You just....you almost bit me," Angel said.
"Uhhh," Lindsey uttered.
"I know I told you to channel Angelus....but damn," Angel exclaimed.
"Fuck you, Angel," Lindsey muttered.
The vampire broke out laughing. "You just did.....but we can go again, if you want," he teasingly said.
"I'm too busy dying, can't you see that?" Lindsey said.
"No dying yet, you wuss! We have to take a shower, and go.....pay Spike back for interrupting us," Angel said.
"Fuck Spike, too," Lindsey muttered.
Angel softly growled. Lindsey shivered. "Oh, no you don't. No Spike for you. You're mine, Lindsey McDonald. All mine."
Lindsey raised his head to look at Angel, a smile on his face, his eyes glittering with amusement. "I am?"
"You are," the vampire said.
"Wicked cool," Lindsey said, then bent down to kiss Angel.
~TBC~
Channeling Angelus
by Menomegirl
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Summary: Angel lets some emotions out, Lindsey learns something about his new self.
Rating: NC-17
Author Notes: Feedback: Yes, please.should I continue or end this series? Let me know!
Disclaimer: Joss, ME, etc, etc.own them. I just like to see them happy. Or confused. And exhausted, apparently.
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Lindsey looked into Angel's eyes, and he saw regret in them. He could damn near hear the thoughts going on in the vampire's head. Angel was reliving that moment in time, the moment the Oracles had said he'd circumvented fate by giving into his anger because Lindsey had won the case earlier that morning. He could see the vampire wondering about all the crap that happened after that long, long day had passed.
Lindsey was stunned when Angel pulled him into a tight embrace, and even more surprised when he felt the shaking start, heard the quite sobs coming from the vampire. He wasn't sure what to do in this situation, but felt that vulnerability within his lover again. It angered Lindsey somewhat, because he'd suspected the Powers, the senior partners, or whoever found that vulnerability would use it for their own ends. That's the reason he'd wanted to help Angel in the first place.
And Fuck......turned out, he was right. Son of a Bitch! Lindsey sighed, curled one arm around Angel, wound the fingers of the other into the vampire's hair, rested his chin on top of his lover's head and just held on until the storm of regret passed, wishing like hell he could give Angel all his strength to help him. He didn't like seeing him this way.
When the weeping had calmed down, Lindsey softly said, "It's not your fault, Angel. I did what I did. You aren't to blame for my actions. I was a grown man who made my own choice. I may have made that choice in anger, but that only makes me as stubborn as you are."
"Yeah, but I could've saved you," Angel whispered. "Look at all that happened after that."
"We don't know what would have been, Angel," Lindsey said. "Yeah, possibly it could have been the better course of action, but what would I have been to you? Someone else you had to protect, someone else you would have felt obligated to, like all your friends?"
Angel said, "But Darla wouldn't have....."
"Been brought back? Yeah, she would have," Lindsey said.
"But then....Conner..." Angel trailed off, unable to regret him.
"I know. I wish I could take away your pain over that. But I can't. I'm sorry," Lindsey softly said, moving his hand to caress the side of Angel's face.
Angel reached up and touched Lindsey's hand. "And I cut off this hand."
Lindsey smiled gently at him. "Well, to be honest, I could've done without you doing that. But even then, I gained strength from the experience, Angel. And I learned something of vast importance in the process."
"Oh, yeah? What was that?" Angel said.
Lindsey's eyes sparkled in merriment as he replied, "Right works a whole lot better than left when it comes to jerkin' off, Angel darlin'."
A small smile appeared on the vampire's face. A snicker escaped those lips. The smile got wider. Then a real laugh came fourth. "It really does, doesn't it?" Angel said.
"Yeah, it does," Lindsey said, then leaned in to kiss that smile.
"You looked really hot doing it, too," Angel said, laughing into the kiss.
"You looked really hot while you were watching me, Dead Boy," Lindsey replied, urging Angel to lower himself away from the headboard.
"How the fuck would you know? You had your eyes closed, and you were way too busy screaming my name to notice what I looked like," Angel said, complying with Lindsey's unspoken wish.
"Says you! I saw you underneath my lashes. Your eyes were staring at my hand the whole time, Angelcakes," Lindsey retorted. "You looked....like you wanted to eat me up."
"I did," Angel said. "I do....I will....later," he whispered as he tilted his hips to accommodate the man over him. "Much later."
"Is that a promise or a threat?" Lindsey said, charming Angel into opening for him.
"I'll make it a promise, if you stop dicking around and be in me," Angel muttered.
"You're so impatient, Angel love," Lindsey teased. "You're the one who wanted me to keep up with you." He twisted his fingers, hit what he wanted, and yes that look came over Angel's face. He rubbed harder, pressing deeply into Angel.
"Lindseyyyyyy" Angel moaned, arching his body up, making Lindsey press harder. "Yes!"
His fingers moving in a tight circle over Angel's sweet spot, Lindsey looked around them for that damn lube. Where had the vampire tossed it last night? Shit Too bad they were all sticky and smeared from a while ago. Using his own come would've worked just fine.
"Lindsey, hurry up. You're killing me here." Angel groaned.
Lindsey snorted. "You're already dead, Soulboy." He scissored his fingers, stretching Angel wider. "Damn, where'd you throw the lube at?"
"It was empty. And I've told you before, you don't have to use lube on me. Now come on," Angel said. "And stop calling me names."
Lindsey stilled completely. Angel groaned. "Empty? Well, shit....why didn't you say so before?"
"Oh, come on, Linds. You like it rough, sometimes, too," Angel complained.
"I might like it rough, but I don't like it raw. I can't do that," Lindsey said. Angel growled. Lindsey shivered with arousal at the sound. "I'm not a demon, Angel," he softly said.
"You're not totally human now, Lindsey. Can't you.....channel Angelus and just....do it?" Angel said.
"We don't know what aspect of Angelus they gave me. And.....No. I don't want to just do it," Lindsey replied.
Angel growled again, which caused Lindsey to shiver once more. The vampire could both see and smell how aroused his lover was. "Fine. You want lubrication? I can do that," Angel said, reaching over to the night stand, grasping the edge of it. He viciously jerked his hand, tearing into the palm of it. He held his hand out to Lindsey. "There."
Lindsey looked at the hand, then raised his eyes to peer into Angel's. "You want to cover me in your blood?" He quietly asked. Angel's gaze was smoldering. The coppery sweet smell of the vampire's blood hit Lindsey like a ton of bricks. He broke out in a sweat.
"Yes, I do," Angel said. Then he moved, reaching for Lindsey....and he coated the young man's erection, stroking him as he did so. Lindsey was very hard now.
Lindsey was harder now. He felt like....exploding....right now....right in Angel's hand."Stop, Angel....hold up....just...," Lindsey raggedly said. He bit into his lip, closed his eyes and prayed for some control over his body.
Angel stopped. He smiled. Hmm....Lindsey liked that. He looked like he was really, really getting off on it. Right. File that away for later, but for now.....
"I want you in me now, Lindsey," Angel whispered.
Lindsey swallowed, held his breath, and positioned himself. He slid swiftly into Angel, gasped at the tightness surrounding him, muttered "Oh, man," then he started riding Angel hard.
Angel hissed, "That's it, Lindsey." And he began moving his hips up into it, taking it to a faster pace.
"Fuck, Angel!," Lindsey screamed, just pounding into the vampire now. He couldn't help it. He closed his eyes again, and just moved. Angel wrapped his legs around Lindsey's waist and pulled him closer. Lindsey clenched his teeth and pushed harder.
"Oh, YES!," Angel yelled. He raked his fingers down Lindsey's back, drawing blood. Lindsey wound one hand into Angel's hair, twisted his head to the side, and bit down right on Angel's pulse point....not hard enough to break the skin, but enough to send them both over the edge. "FUCK, LINDSEY!!," Angel screamed.
Lindsey collapsed onto the vampire's chest, just breathing. Well, at least he hadn't passed out. That was an improvement, at any rate, but fuck......he couldn't believe what he'd just done.
"Oh, my God, Lindsey," Angel said.
"Uhhh," Lindsey uttered.
"You just....you almost bit me," Angel said.
"Uhhh," Lindsey uttered.
"I know I told you to channel Angelus....but damn," Angel exclaimed.
"Fuck you, Angel," Lindsey muttered.
The vampire broke out laughing. "You just did.....but we can go again, if you want," he teasingly said.
"I'm too busy dying, can't you see that?" Lindsey said.
"No dying yet, you wuss! We have to take a shower, and go.....pay Spike back for interrupting us," Angel said.
"Fuck Spike, too," Lindsey muttered.
Angel softly growled. Lindsey shivered. "Oh, no you don't. No Spike for you. You're mine, Lindsey McDonald. All mine."
Lindsey raised his head to look at Angel, a smile on his face, his eyes glittering with amusement. "I am?"
"You are," the vampire said.
"Wicked cool," Lindsey said, then bent down to kiss Angel.
~TBC~