Stronger Than That 2

[menomegirl]

Beware! This one contains personal opinions.

Stronger Than That 2:
Poetry, Definition, And Forever

Written by: Menomegirl

Disclaimer: Angel and Lindsey belong to Joss
Whedon, Mutant Enemy, and whoever else. I'm
only musing on them, for my own enjoyment.

Pairing and Rating: Implied Angel/Lindsey, no
rating really. Maybe PG.

Distribution: Take it, use it, hate it. See?
I'm easy.

Spoilers: Up to S5, 'Destiny'

Final note: The first part of this was a poem
I submitted to Bronze-Beta, and it was posted
in early September, 2003. I've added a little
to it.



Lindsey

I still see that look on your face

It lingers within my memory

Of words you couldn't say

And loyalty you misplaced

Do they haunt you every day?

What would you do

If you could take it all back?

All of the choices you made

Were always the wrong ones

Inside your heart did you realize that?

Greed and ambition became your life

Desire and hate twisted your mind

My heart hurt for all you were going through

The pain in your blue eyes cut like a knife

Why did it take so long for you to get a clue?

I hope you've become a better person

One who wouldn't kill the one you want

Just to spite the one you hate

You have to live with that every day

But I think you learned just a little too late.

Are you back to rectify past mistakes?

Or to cause more internal torment?

Did you, in fact, sell your soul?

Are you on the side of evil again?

Just what is your ultimate goal?

If it's more vengeance you're after

You aren't the man I hoped you'd become

But its not courage that you lack

Did you learned from the past?

I hope like hell you're stronger than that.



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



Angel



The definition of a hero:

Man of distinguished bravery

Principal figure in a story

In answering a question recently,

I had to admit I thought you were only one of these
things

But it's not what everyone thinks you are

Of course, it's just my opinion, after all

The definition of champion:

One who fights for a cause



Which cause would that be?

Helping a slayer, when you decided to crawl out of
a gutter,

In order to become someone?

Helping the hopeless, did that include locking the
door,

Leaving ruthless lawyers to die?

Helping to cleanse an evil law firm, from the
inside out?

That's truly funny, it makes me laugh

Of course, it's just my opinion, after all

The definition of loyal and loyalty:

faithful and fidelity in duty



It's remaining true to something,

Even when you begin to hate the main character

It's watching even as you loathe the female lead

It's staying through the most disgusting storyline

You've ever had the displeasure to watch

And it's still the best show you've ever seen

The definition of hope:

cherish an expectation of good



The most amazing occurrence happened at the end of
season four

Couldn't believe it affected me like that, it
totally blew me away

To have your heart break for a character you so
despise

And cry tears for his pain.........

To quote another character, "It was a bloody
revelation."

I then looked forward to the future with glee

So far, it wasn't in vain

I'm very happy about the way it's coming together

The end of episode eight made me so high, it was
insane

No matter who ends up good

Or who's shown to be not so good

Doesn't really matter at this point, you know

Because I want to see you become

The definition of a hero

The forces of evil can't bring you down

I think I finally believe in you

Because I think you're stronger than that.



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



Angel and Lindsey







The definition of ambiguous:

Doubtful; not clear



That's what you are to me, it's what you've always
been

I watched as something beautiful was swept away in
a sea of ugliness

I watched as that something so damaged tried to be
repaired

I watched as that something died a fitting death

I watched as something else tried miserably to
replace it

I watched as that something turned even uglier than
I could've foreseen

I watched as that something died an even fitter
death

And

I watched as something that could have been the
most perfect

Was left to glances, subtle words, and innuendo

I watched as sparks flew and magic was created

With every scene you were in together

I watched with amazement as the thoughts formed in
my head

Never imagined I'd root for something left so
unsaid



But once the idea was planted, it was there to stay

It's remained in my head, it refuses to go away

I ponder on the set of double standards television
lives under

I wonder why it's feasible to show one couple, and
not another

Even though I know it will never be, I still have
to say:

I've never seen two characters more

Made for each other than these two are

God, it's so sad we're on network tv

How disappointing it turned out to be

I have only one thing left to say

And it's to Joss and ME:

I thought you were stronger than that.